My Wakeup Call

This past weekend I got the wakeup call that I needed, the annual Silent River boot camp. When I first woke up at 5am on Saturday I felt terrible, my head was foggy and my body ached. I didn't think I had it in me to even leave my bed and had came to the conclusion to just give up. I don't know what motivated me but with only a few minutes to get ready I set out to the Keephills Community Hall to begin my day.

Each seminar had it's purpose, and as I went though the hours of work leading to the fitness test I found myself in a better mental state. However once the fitness test started it felt like my world was falling apart. I was so angry at myself for not performing at my best, regardless of what shape my health has been in. I just felt like I should give up on everything. But I couldn't give up, because letting myself doubt take control would only let my friends, my family, down.

After completing the 2km run that marked the end of the boot camp, I felt my self doubt vanish. In it's place I found an urge to improve myself and a desire take all the lessons I had learned that day and put them into my daily training. Although I am not where I need to be for my black belt grading, I feel that I have gained the tools necessary to succeed.

In my last blog I reached out for help and am thankful for the advice I was given. I want to reach out again because the only way my health will improve is if I make changes to my healthcare. The doctors I have seen at my family clinic have been trying to patch me with medications that have little to no effect. I am currently waiting for my recommendation to an ENT specialist but I have my doubts about taking this route. Any recommendations on this matter would be greatly appreciated.