A Quick Update

It seems that for every step I take forward, something else seems to try and push me back. My sense of balance has returned (99%) but recently I have been finding myself exhausted during the day and having insomnia at night. I have been seeing a chiropractor for two weeks and have been seeing results. The only down side I seem to be having is this exhaustion, which I suspect is being caused by the reset to my nervous system. The insomnia started a few weeks into my lose of balance and I haven't not found a remedy that has worked yet. On Monday I went in for my first full day of work since the start of my ailments but the next day I woke with no energy. My bed seemed to be my only place of refuge and it took me hours to leave it. The following day I went into work but to only show the report given by my chiropractor and was told to stay home again until I was better. Because of this I will have to apply for EI if I want to continue with my "normal" life. This coming Monday I am seeing my GP again and am going over everything that has affected me over these past months.

I know I haven't been vocal about my personal requirements, but I have been setting up the necessary framework first. At the April meeting I will be showing this progress on what I believe will be a requirement that could benefit the whole team and even the school itself.

-Totals-
Pushups: 7250
Situps: 6580
Jian Form: 65
Kempo: 15
Acts of Kindness: 20
Rounds of Sparring: 8

Back on Path, Towards the Path

Today has been a productive day. I shoved off the deck in my back yard, giving me plenty of space to practice my forms. I have a lot of catching up to do since my numbers are far to low, but it is a challenge that was made out of necessity. My balance has more or less returned, I have been back to work but only part-time. This week I will be making appointments at the chiropractor and acupuncturist that were recommended by Sifu Wiebe and Ms. Csillag respectively.

-Totals-

Pushups - 5600
Situps - 5600
Kempo - 10
Jian Form - 60
Acts of Kindness - 10

On the Road to Recovery

I'm happy to say that I have been able to go back to work and my condition has started to improve. I am still having problems with my balance but I have been able to work through them and have even been able to go back to the foundry I work at. For two weeks I'll be working four hour days but should be well enough for full work soon. Because of my lack of work hours I have found myself in a tough financial state, currently I am unable to afford to see a chiropractor nor acupuncturist but hope to have the funds to do so soon. I would like to thank all those that have been giving me suggestions on what I can do to improve my situation and it has really shown me the value of the team.

Pushups - 5150
Situps - 5150
Jian Form - 40
Kempo - 10
Acts of Kindness - 3

Have You Seen My Center? I Seem to Have Misplaced It

This morning I awoke from a restless sleep. I remember still being awake at 1:30 even though I laid down at 9:00 and had an alarm set for 5:00. Within the short amount of time that I was actually unconscious I had a very vivid dream. I was running towards a finish line, my legs in agony while everyone passed me with smiles on their faces. I felt like I couldn't take another step, so I turned around and started running backwards, the only thing propelling me was my falling center. When my alarm brought me back to consciousness I felt pain running through my entire body, it felt like I had just ran the race that my mind had created. It took me four hours before I could muster the energy to leave my bed.

For the past three weeks I have found myself in the deepest rut I have ever experienced. My body is in the best shape it has ever been in but it feels like my head has been missing. My doctor has pinpointed the cause of all this, a group of muscles in my neck, but the medication and stretches I have been told to do have little affect on my situation. When I walk my steps seem to fall instead of being placed, my path sways in front of me when I try to keep it straight. Each night I hope that I'll be better in the morning, that I can return to my normal self and go back to work, but each morning I find myself in the same spot. The constant sense of failure has started to push me into a depression, something that I thought could never happen to me.

Totals:

Pushups - 4050
Situps - 4050
Jian Form - 30
Kempo - 10
Acts of Kindness - 1